Living Under A Spotlight by Aaliyonce

SPOTLIGHT

"I grew up in the spotlight."[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]
"I grew up in the spotlight".[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]
"I hid from the spotlight, and still ended growing up in it".[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]

They grew up in the spotlight. You've readautobiographies, watched interviews and documentaries, and you stilldon't the whole story. Now, they're ready to give you a front-row seatof how the dynasty known as "The Knowles/Parker Dynasty". Sit back, and marvel....
Starring

Beyonce Knowles
Shanice Parker
Aaliyah Knowles-Jackson


[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]Shanice's POV

I'm not sure where to start. My name is Shanice RaquelParker. I'm four years old, but I'm not the average four year old. I'ma child produgy. By that I mean intellectually. My parents noticed howsmart and advanced I was when I started talking, really talking ateighteen months. News got around and every newscast and T.V talk showwas talking about me.

[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]Thisis my dad, Claude Parker. He owns his own trucking company with a totalof 3 types of trucks, shipping, renting, and logging.
[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]Thisis my mom, Wanda Consuelos-Parker. She's biracial and is a collegeproffessor. She's the head of the Science department at her school.

I also have three sisters, all older and more normal than me.
[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]Nicole is the oldest, sixteen.
[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]Shavonne is next, fourteen.
And then there is [You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]Denise, or Sel in short of her middle name Selena. She's twelve.

Okay,moving right along. We live in a very nice neighborhood inHouston, TX. My best friend is two years older than me and lives nextdoor. Her sister and Sel are the same age and are also friends.

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Beyonce's POV

Most kids my age are busy, basically being kids. Me,I'm busy trying to make my dreams of becomming a proffesional singercome true. I'm in an all girl group called 'Girls' Tyme'.
I'm twelve years old and my name is Beyonce. It's weird, but it was my mother's maiden name.
[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]Thisis a picture of my mom, my little sister, and myself from about threeyears ago. My mom's name is Celestine Knowles, Tina for short. She'sCreole and she owns her own hair salon. My little sister's name isSolange. Yeah, we have weird names. She's six now and is.... lively.LOL!
[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]This is my dad. His name is Matthew Knowles. He's a salesman for a medical equipment company named Xerox.

We live in a big house in Houston, TX, next door to world reknown childprodigy Shanice Parker and her family. She's Solange's best friend andbesides from the girls in the group, her sister Denise is my bestfriend. Our parents are actually old friends. Our mom's were collegeroommates. Her dad used to drive delivery trucks for Xerox, that's howhe and my dad became friends. It's funny that my parents still met ontheir own and vice versa. Bizzare, huh?


Shanice's POV

Girls' Tyme had just lost on Star Search. All of theircrying would have bothered me if they had not been wronged. Personally,I wasn't one to stand for an injustice.

Shanice: Am I the only one who sees the wrong in this?! This is ablatant example of racism towards music! No matter what song they choseto perform, they should have been placed by age, not because they werea group! I am going to wri-

My dad playfully placed his hand over my my mouth and picked me up.

Claude: Calm down Johnny Cochran.

I balled my face up at him. After a while, we left and headed back towards our hotel room.

Denise: Dad, watch out!

There was a gleam of blinding light. Then you heard brakes and metalcrashing. My head hit the window and I blacked out..............


When I woke up, I had a BIG headache. And that bright light didn't helpit either. I put my hand to my head to rub my temple to find that itwas wrapped in guaze. Confused and a bit scared, I started to lookaround my surroundings. There were two things I realized at once. One)Iwas in a hospital and Two)Beyonce was sitting next to my bed, but shewas looking out the window. My arm was in a sling, so I couldn't tapher on the shoulder and my mouth was so dry that I couldn't speak. Igave a big, heavy sigh. Sure enough, she heard it and turned around.She smiled really big and tried to hug me, sending pain through my arm.

Beyonce: I'm so glad you woke up. Mama went to take Solange to the cafeteria. You thirsty? Here.

She handed me a bottle of orange juice that she was holding and put astraw in it. I almost drunk the whole bottle before coming up for air.

Shanice: Wh-Where's Mami and Daddy?

She looked down and fiddled with her hands. I heard her sniffle.

Beyonce: I-I....you should wait for Mama to get back.
Shanice: Bee, tell me........They died, didn't they?
Beyonce: Niecy, I'm so sorry.
Shanice: Where's Sel?
Beyonce: She got to go home two days ago. Niecy, are you okay?
Shanice: Yes, I'll be fine.

I turned my head to the other side and just stared at the wall. Ididn't feel anything. I knew I should be sad or angry, or distraught,but I didn't feel anything.

A Month Later;Beyonce's POV

Things seemed so unreal. No more Aunt Wanda or UncleBlue. To make matters worse, Nikki, Shavonne, and Sel were moving toWashington with Uncle Blue's brother, David, who none of us seem tolike because of how he and the rest of his brothers treats Niecy. Ihave no idea why, not even Shanice can figure it out and she's thesmartest person in the world! I watched as the four sisters sat on thesidewalk in front of their house, watching their stuff being loadedinto a UHAUL truck. Niecy was now an official member of the Knowlesfamily. My parents adopted her so she wouldn't end up with a crazyfoster family, an orphanage, or her family that would probably mistreather and spend her money. Goodbyes are hard for me, so I'm stayinginside. My dad was outside, standing on our porch.

Shanice's POV

I sat curled up in Nicole's lap as tears welled up in my eyes.

Shanice: Make Uncle David take me, too. I promise I won't get in the way or misbehave, just make him take me, too.

She gentily rubbed my back as she fought back tears of her own.

Nicole: I wish I could, but he's made his decision. Besides, I don't want you around him.
Shavonne: Yeah, you get to stay here with Uncle Matthew, Aunt Tina-
Shanice: I don't want to stay here! I want to go with you!
David: Put her down and let's go.

We all hugged before they left. Denise turned around and bent down in front of me.

Denise: Don't take it out on them. It's not their fault, okay?

She meant the Knowleses. I nodded. As they began to pull off, the tearsstarted to come, faster and faster. My heart was aching so bad, Ithought I was going to have a heart attack. I ran after the van to theend of the street. As they turned, I fell to my knees and did somethingeveryone expected me to do that I didn't throughout this wholeordeal.... I cried aloud. Uncle Matt came and cradled me in his arms. Iburied my head in his chest as we made our way back 'home'.

End Chapter


Beyonce's POV

It's been over two months. Surely, but slowly, thingsare starting to be getting more normal, better, back up to speed.Idon't know how to describe it. After being in a zombie-like state for amonth and a half, Shanice finally came out the room and started eatingagain. I mean, she always ate, it just wasn't healthy her taking two orthree bites of every meal we had. My dad convinced us to stop mopingand either give up or get back on the horse. We girls talked about it,and decided to keep trying. It would be stupid to let this much hardwork go out the window, and we all really do love performing andsinging. So, we're back to work. Right now, we're on a fifteen minutebreak. Kelly and I went into the kitchen. Shanice was sitting at theisland on a stool eating an apple. She has a loose tooth and has beeneating apples for a week to get it out.

Beyonce: Niecy, how do we sound?

She shrugged her shoulders, nibbling her apple.

Kelly: Are you ever going to start talking again?

Shanice shrugged again. This time, she got off the stool and headed upstairs.

Kelly: I know she's hurting, but I miss the old Niecy. The one thatused to be our biggest fan and biggest critic. The one that used tohelp us with our homework. The one that used to get on us about usingbad English.
Beyonce: That's it! Kelly, come on. I have a plan.

We ran upstairs to Shanice and Solange's room.

Beyonce: Just follow my lead.

We walked into the room.

Beyonce: I done look all ova' this stupid house. It ain't in my room or in the den. It gotta be in here.
Kelly: I'm tellin' ya, it ain't in here. What Solo want with yo' stupid diry anway?
Beyonce: Ma diry ain't stupid. So don't you never call it that again. Mad 'cause you ain't go no diry.
Kelly: I'm gon' get one tomor.
Shanice: Stop it, stop it, stop it! You two are driving me crazy with all of your incorrect grammar!

Kelly and I laughed as she shook her head at us.

Beyonce: I told you it was going to work. She can't stand even the smallest bit of a grammatical error.
Shanice: You used reverse psychology on me. That wasn't nice, not bad, but it wasn't nice.
Kelly: We were just trying to get you to start talking again.
Beyonce: Yeah, how are you going to deal with a problem if you don't talk about it? Isn't that what you're always telling me?
Shanice: Yes, but it's different. I got seperated from my sisters and Istill can't figure out why? I'm supposed to know everything. Well,except where babies come from. They said I had to miss that section ofbiology to preserve my innocence.
Beyonce: Niecy, you know you aren't alone, right? We're all here to help you.
Kelly: Yeah, we love you, Little Einstein.

She smiled and hugged us.

Kelly: Oh, and a congratulations is in order. I heard you got nominated for an Academy Award. The youngest Oscar nominee ever.

Shanice had done a movie about a year ago. I really didn't understand it, but what kid would, other than Niecy.

Shanice: That's terrific. There's something else to add to my long list of accolades.

Kelly and I looked at her with a confused look on our faces.

Shanice: There's something else to add to my achievements.
Beyonce and Kelly: Ooooh.

She shook her head and headed downstairs with us behind her.

Shanice: Beyonce, you should take it easy or practice harder. You seewasp forget the lyrics when you try to do the routine and sing at thesame time. And Kelly, maybe if you started to try and pick up theroutine the first time you are shown the steps, it would be easier foryou to do the routine.

Kelly and I hung back a little and let Niecy go on.

Kelly: I'm starting to think we should have left her the way she was.
Beyonce: You, too?

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1996;Kelly's POV

Tavia was in the booth doing her rap for 'Illusion'. Beyonce got up, holding her stomach and mouth, and ran out the studio.

LeToya: Is it just me, or does Beyonce seem to be belemic?
Kelly: Let me talk to her.

I went in the bathroom. Beyonce was gargling mouth wash. I handed her a paper towel.

Kelly: Beyonce, there's a better way to lose weight than this.
Beyonce: [weakly] Kels, I'm happy with my weight. I just haven't beenfeeling good. My stomach's been doing flip/flops for a week now.
Kelly: Did you tell Aunt Tina?
Beyonce: Yes Kelly. She said it might be the flu. It's going around.

I placed my palm on her forehead. I'm not a doctor or a mother, but forsome reason, I placed my hand on her stomach. Living together for solong kind of synchronized our cycles and mine was on.

Kelly: Bee, you're not on your period. Oh my God! Beyonce, are you a virgin?

She didn't say anything.

Kelly: Beyonce, answer me.
Beyonce: No, I'm not. Lindell and I made love last month, then once two weeks ago.

I looked at her with my mouth wide open.

Beyonce: No, no, and no. We used a condom both times.
Kelly: You ever hear of them breaking? To be on the safe side, weshould get you a test, and if you are, then we have to tell Aunt Tinaand Uncle Matt.
Beyonce: You want me to tell my parents that I lost my virginity and now my best friend thinks I'mpregnant?
Kelly: We'll buy you a home pregnancy test. If it's positive, then we tell the, well, you tell them.

[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]Beyonce's POV

After our studio session, Kelly and I went out and brought the test.

[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]Shanice: Beyonce, could you-oooooooooohhhhhhhh!

Kelly got up and yanked her in, locking the door behind her.

Kelly: Get in here and hush.
Shanice: That's a pregnancy test. Who's pregnant?

I looked down at the stick. At that moment, an atomic bomb just went off in my body.

Beyonce: I am.


6 Months Later; [You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]Beyonce's POV



So, the record company didn't drop us. Well, Niecy hada lot to do with it. That girl knows her legal jargan. We're stillrecording, I'm just not making any appearances. Today, Lindell and Iare going to the doctor to find out the sex of this baby that has beenkicking me, making me eat wired stuff, and making me an emotionalwreck. Meaning, it's a girl. I just have a feeling that my genes arestronger.

[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]Lindell: So, did you miss me?
Beyonce: What do you think?

I kissed him. For the last 3 months, Lindell's been on a Naval base. He's studying to be an engineer.

Dr. Richards: This is big.

I shot him an evil look as he prepped my stomach for the ultra-sound.

Dr. Richard: I meant that it's a big deal to a lot of parents to findout the sex of their baby.Okay, here it is. I see all ten fingers andtoes. The heart rate is normal and healthy. See there.

[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]. Lindell and I smiled at the image of our baby.

Dr. Richards: It seems you have a girl.

I smiled. A woman's intuition is never wrong.

Dr. Richards: Everything seems perfectly healthy.

He printed the pcitures out and did a final check-up. Lindell and I left.

Lindell: You want anything?
Beyonce: Yeah, I want two [You must be registered and logged in to see this link.] from Jack in the Box, you know how I likeit, I want a large root beer float, but with chocolate ice cream, and apigfoot.
Lindell: Damn, anything else Mikey?
Beyonce: Yeah, for you to stop being sarcastic and get me my food. Oh, Solo and Niecy might want something.
Lindell: Okay. They still eating the same thing?
Beyonce: Yeah.

He grabbed his keys and headed fo the door. I think I hurt his feelings, so I stopped him before he went out.

Beyonce: Lin!
Lindell: Yeah Beyonce?
Beyonce: I love you.

He turned around and smiled.

Lindell: I love you, too.

He opened the door and left. Hey, I'm 7 months pregnant! I have theright to be moody. I flipped on the t.v and stopped on Discovery HealthChannel. They were showing "Birth Day".

Beyonce: Just what I need to get ready to give birth to a beautiful baby girl.
Matthew: Did I hear that correctly?

I turned my head to see my father and two sisters walk through the door.

Matthew: Did you say I'm getting a granddaughter?
Beyonce: Yes sir.
Matthew: More women in the house. Oh boy.
Beyonce: [laughing] Daddy!
Shanice: You should feel blessed to be in the precense of such beautiful and exquisite women.
Matthew: I am. Congratulations, Beyonce.

Solange and Shanice came and sat up under me.

Matthew: Is she healthy?
Beyonce: So far, so good.

I was showing Solange and Shanice the ultrasounds when Lindell showed back up.

Lindell: Can I get some help?

Solange, Niecy, and I looked at each other, then back at Lindell.

Solange: Hmm...
Shanice: Uhhhhhh....
Beyonce: Nah.
Lindell: Okay, I see how ya'll do.

He slowly walked over and sat the food in front of me. He seemed to also have gotten something for Solange.

Lindell: Wrong. Just wrong.
Shanice: How can the three of you speak such incorrect grammar?! Ugh, let me go away before your bad speech rubs off on me.

She got up and grabbed a bag from Lindell. He looked back at her.

Lindell: Ther is something seriously wrong with that little girl.
Solange: Yeah, it's called being an Academy Award winning actress/child prodigy.

We laughed as Lindell spread the food out in front of us on the coffee table.

End Chapter


[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]May 10, 1997;Shanice's POV

I was in my room packing my suitcase. I was off to work, the story ofmy life. When you are an Academy Award winning actress, you are in highdemand. This job, I didn't mind. There was a slight knock at my door.

Shanice: Come in!

The door opened. Uncle Matt, Aunt Tina, Solange, Kelly, and Beyoncewith her big pregnant stomach, all walked in. Uncle Matt was holding[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.].

All: Happy birthday to you. Happy Birthday to you. Happy Birthday dear Niecy. Happy Birthday to yoooou.
Shanice: You like me. You really like me.

They all laughed.

[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]Solange: Just make a wish already, Geeky.

I shot Solange a menacing look before concentrating on my wish. Iglanced at Beyonce out the corner of my eyes and smiled. I concentratedwith all my intelligence and might, took a deep breath, and blew outthe candles. Everyone applauded.

Kelly: So, what did you wish for?

Just as I was about to answer, Solange shrieked.

Solange: Ewww, Bee. You're peeing on my floor!
Beyonce: No, I think my water broke.
Shanice: Five, four, three, two, one....

Beyonce screamed out and hunched over. She's just experienced her first contraction.

Shanice: That's what I wished for.
Beyonce: Niecy, I hate you!
Shanice: No you don't. That's just the pain talking.
Beyonce: Get this baby out of me!
Shanice: Okay, people! You three go ahead and get Bee to the hospital.Uncle Matt, you have to take me to the airport. Oh, and don't forget tocall Lindell so he can mee you there.

Everyone scurried around, following my instructions. Unfortunately, Iam going to miss the birth of my 'niece' because I am off to film aspot on "The Nanny", but I love that show so I'm not entirely upset.I'll get to see the baby next week. Uncle Matt and I got in one car andthe others got in another. Once we got to the end of the road, bothcars went in two different directions.

[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]Beyonce's POV

I thought losing my virginity hurt, but this pain was like a milliontimes worse. The contractions hurt, then when I had to push, that hurtalso.

Dr. Richards: She's stuck.
Beyonce: Stuck?! Who's stuck?!
Lindell: Just stay calm Beyonce.
Dr. Richards: Beyonce, I'm gonna need you to give me an estra hardpush, but not too much straining. And don't stop until I tell you.

I had so many thoughts in my head, I didn't feel the pain. I was too worried that there might be something wrong with my baby.

Dr. Richards: Okay, stop. She's not budging. Nurse, we're going to have to suction her out. Beyonce, give me a push.

I pushed. I heard a "skoosh" sound.

Dr. Richards: Okay, here we go.

He held her up for me to see.

Dr. Rihcards: Daddy, do you want to do the honors?

Lindell gently smacked her little butt and she cried. Boy did she havesome lungs on her! They wrapped her up in a blanket and heanded her tome.

Beyonce: She's so precious. Hi, I'm your Mommy. And that's your daddy.
Lindell: Hey Munchkin. Sorry about hitting you, the doctor made me do it.

Lindell looked at me.

Lindell: She's beautiful, just like her Mommy.
Beyonce: Do you want to hold her now?
Lindell: Yeah.

I carefully handed Lindell our daughter. Man, it seems so surreal.

Lindell: What are we going to name her?
Beyonce: How about Aaliyah?
Lindell: I like your first name. And Tyra for her middle name, after the sexy Tyra Banks.

I rolled my eyes and smiled at the comment he made.

Beyonce: You know how people give their children two different names, a birth name and a christened name?
Lindell: Like mine is Lindell Jackson, but my christened name is Lindell Aloyuiscious Armando Jackson?

I stiffened a laugh and nodded my head.

Lindell: Stop laughing.
Beyonce:[laughing] I'm sorry. But, yeah, that's the idea. How about herbirth name is Aaliyah Tyra Knowles-Jackson and her christened name canbe Aaliyah Beyonce Tyra Knowles-Jackson?

He looked down at our daughter and softly stroked her cheek. He gave a side smile and an airy chuckle.

Lindell: Welcome to the world Aaliyah Tyra Knowles-Jackson.

I looked down and I swear I saw her smile at us. On this very day, Ipromise that I'm not going to let anything happen to her, ever and thatI'll always love her.

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Aaliyah Tyra Knowles-Jackson
Birthdate: May 10, 1997
Weight: 7lbs,9oz.


1 Month Later; Shanice's POV

Nicole: The girl's breath smelt like hot garbage!
Shanice: Did you tell her that?
Nicole: Of course not.

I laughed. Nicole is now 20 with two kids. She lives in California nowand is pursuing her dreams of becomming a singer, something she haswanted to do for the last two years. She also works at a radio stationpart time and is still attending college. Her oldest is Garland TerrellCorbitt, Jr, we call him Terrell. He turns three in September. And thenthere's Totyanna Auneigh Corbitt, who just turned one in March.Nicole's engaged to Butch, he's Senior. Right now, I'm taking a littlevacation at their condo for three days.

[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]Nicole: So, how is Beyonce and the baby?
Shanice: They're fine. Lindell named her Aaliyah Tyra Knowles-Jackson.But when she's christened in a few months, they're going to add Beyonceas her first middle name.
Nicole: Why?
Shanice: Because Lindell really wanted to name her Beyonce Tyra, butBee didn't think it was a smart move. I mean, eventually, when Aali'sready to come out into the open, she's not going to want to beconstantly reminded of her mother's celebrity by having her name.
Nicole: I wanted to give Tata two middle names, but Butch didn't like it.
Butch: Two middle names is ghetto.
Shanice: No it isn't. My christened name is Shanice Raquel Carmen-Elizabeth Parker.

Butch nodded, then busted out laughing. I balled my mouth up andfrowned, then punched him in his arm. Not like he felt it, though.

Butch:[laughing] What, it's funny? 'Carmen-Elizabeth'?

I still wasn't laughing. My Papa gave me that name, and I was verysensitive about the whole "fahter" topic, still. Nikki looked at Butchand shook her head.

Butch: Hey, Niecy, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make you mad.
Shanice: It's okay.
Terrell: Daddy! Daddy!

Terrell came running into the kitchen, waving his arms franticallyabove his head. Butch put his hands on Terrell's shoulder and squatteddown. Of course, he still towered over Terrell.

Butch: Calm down and tell me what's wrong?
[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]Terrell: Tata, Tata locked haself in bafroom. She crying.
Nikki: Again? I swear, I might have to put a child safety gate in front of their bathroom door.
Butch: Then it'll be hard for Terrell to get to the bathroom. Come on.

Butch and Terrell went back upstairs. I shook my head, smiling.

Shanice: How does she lock herself in the bathroom?
Nikki: She saw me lock the door and so she'll push the stool to a door, climb up, and lock it.
Shanice:[laughing] Wow.

You could hear Tata and Terrell counting as they descended the stairs.Then the pitter patter of their feet as they ran towards us in thekitchen. [You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]Tata came up to me, with that big, dimply smile of hers, they got that from Butch.

Shanice: How can I help you?

She reeled her arm back and hit me on my leg, laughing, and taking off to the best of her ability. I gave Nikki a wierd look.

Terrell: Aunt Niecy, you it.

He laughed and ran off after Tata.

Shanice: Oh, tag. Okay, here I come!

I got up and ran into the direction they went. They're laughs and screams filled the condo as we ran around, playing tag.


Beyonce's POV

Aali was on the changing table crying and my mom was in my ear, nagging.

Tina: Don't forget, it's front to back.
Beyonce: I know, Ma.
Tina: Not too hard, now.
Beyonce: I'm not wiping her hard.

I finished chaniging her with my mother critiquing everything I did. I picked her up and laid her in the basinet next to my bed.

Kelly: Bee, the tutor's here.
Tina: I got her. Go on.

I followed Kelly downstairs.

Kelly: You seem aggrevated.
Beyonce: I am. [sighs] She's pushing my buttons, Kells. I bet you right now, she's up there re-changing the baby.
Kelly: She'll cut it out in a while. She's just making sure you got it. Watch, by next month, she won't be doing it anymore.
Beyonce: I hope you're right.

We went into the den where we have our classes. Focusing was hard forme today, but I got through it. I also had to start my workout today toget rid of this pregnancy weight, which I was glad to get rid of. I wasso tired after all of this, that I went to sleep at 5 and didn'twake-up until 9. So, I guess having a mom like mine is beneficialsometimes.


[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]Shanice's POV

I am waaaaaaayyyyyy too different. I'm always the lastto go to sleep, and yet, the first to wake up. I woke up at six, Nicoleand the kids got up an hour later.

Nicole: What time did you go to bed?
Shanice: Aproximately 15 to 20 minutes after one. Are you working today?
Nicole: Yep.

Butch was already gone. He worked as a supervisor at a factory wherethey make refridgerator and lawn mower parts. Tata and Terrell went todaycare.

Nicole: Do I need to worry about leaving you here?
Shanice: What do you think?
Nicole: Child prodigy or not, you're still my baby sister.

She bent down and kissed my cheek. I pretended to be disgusted and wipe my cheek, but everyone knows I love it. LOL!

Nicole: Come on, Rell. Tell Aunt Niecy bye.
Shanice: It's "See you later" not "Bye".
Terrell: See later.

Tata opened and closed her little hand. I stood in the door until theypulled off. I went into the kitchen and got out a few things. Then, Iput my Selena CD in the radio.

Shanice: Cada Vez
Cada Vez Que Lo Veo Pasar

I cracked two eggs in the frying pan to make two over-easy eggs. I also started some grits and made a pancake.

Shanice:Mi Corazon Se Enloquece
Y Me Empieza A Palpitar

Y Se Emociona (Y Se Emociona" />
Ya No Razona
No Lo Puedo Controlar
Y Se Emociona (Y Se Emociona)
Ya No Razona
Y Me Empieza A Cantar (Cantar)
Me Canta Asi Asi

(Coro)
Bidi Bidi Bom Bom (Bidi Bidi Bom Bom)
Bidi Bidi Bom Bom (Bidi Bidi Bom Bom)
Bidi Bidi Bidi Bidi Bidi Bom Bom
Bidi Bidi Bidi Bidi Bidi Bom Bom

Cada Vez
Cada Vez Que Lo Oigo Hablar
Me Teimblan Hasta Las Piernas
Y El Corazon Igual

Y Se Emociona (Y Se Emociona)
Ya No Razona
No Lo Puedo Controlar
Y Se Emociona (Y Se Emociona)
Ya No Razona
Y Me Empieza A Cantar (Cantar)
Me Canta Asi Asi

(Coro)

Cuando Escucho Esta Cancion
Mi Corazon Quiere Cantar Asi

(Coro

I put my eggs on the plate without breaking the yolk, I put my gritsand pancakes on the plate, and put the dishes that I had used in thesink. I turned off the radio and went into the living room to watchT.V. while I enjoyed my breakfast. I picked up the remote and beganflipping through the channels.

Shanice: Nope, nope, nah-uh, ooh.

Matilda was on so I left it there as I ate my breakfast.

Shanice: A girl after my own heart.

I sat back and enjoyed my breakfast while watching Matilda do the same.

Beyonce's POV; Two Months Later

Destiny's Child had shot their first video last week and I must say, it was incredible!

Kelly: Man, it's so boring.

Kelly, Aali[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.] , and I were sitting in the house, on our day off.

Beyonce: I got an idea.
Kelly: What?
Beyonce: Go get dressed.
Kelly: Why?
Beyonce: Just do it.

She got up and went to her room. Aali started "talking".

Beyonce: Say what? [Aali babbles] For real?

She smiled.

Beyonce: Well Munchkin, today is another big day to add to the baby book.

I wiped her off and dressed her in [You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]. Then I sat her in her swing and I got dressed then Kelly came back in my room already dressed.

Beyonce: Copy cat.
Kelly: Whatever.

I put Aali in her carseat and strapped her in the car.

Kelly: Where are we going?
Beyonce: You'll see.

I drove to the mall.

Kelly: The mall? Why did we come here?
Beyonce: To get Aali's ears pierced.
Kelly: What?!?! That baby is a baby!
Beyonce: Which is the best time to do it. Look.

I pulled out a box with some cute little [You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]. Kelly started to look worried.

Kelly: But won't it hurt her?
Beyonce: Only for a day or so. If you can't handle it, you can go do your own thing, and I'll understand.

She looked at Aali, who smiled up at her.

Kelly: Come on. I know how queasy you can get. I can't let my goddaughter go through this alone.
Beyonce: Say "Thank you Aunt Kelly". So, does this mean you're going to hold her?
Kelly: Oh hell no!

I put Aali's face up to mine's.

Beyonce: It was worth a shot, huh Momma?

She started to "talk" again.

Beyonce: See Kelly, she says she wants you to hold her while she gets it done.
Kelly: Munchkin, this is your first life lesson: You can't get everything you want, no matter how cute you are.

We went into the piercing shop. Kelly had her eyes closed the whole time.

Tina's POV

Tina: Oh, my baby.

I took Aaliyah out of Beyonce's arms.

Beyonce: Mom, she's okay.
Tina: Beyonce, she's crying. How is she okay?
Beyonce: Could it be that she just had her ears pierced about 10 minutes ago? Grandparents.

She went upstairs. I bounced Aali up and down, trying to get her to calm down.

Tina: It's okay Munchkin.

I put a cool cloth around her neck, on her ears.

Beyonce's POV

Beyonce: Why does she do that?!
Kelly: Because she's a grandmother.

I flopped down on my bed.

Beyonce: Kelly, shes making me feel like I'm a bad mother. Like I didthis just to hear her cry. I know she's done it twice before, so sheshould know I wouldn't do anythng to hurt Aali.
Kelly: Tell her that. Make her understand how you're feeling.
Beyonce: Kelly, you've been here for 8 years. You know it's easier said than done when it comes to her.
Kelly: People can change.
Beyonce: Not after 43 years.
Tina: Beyonce!
Kelly: Here's your chance.

I got up and went downstairs. Mom was sitting on the couch and Aali wasin her basinet asleep. I went to pick her up so I could go backupstairs, but I realized Kelly was right, as usual. In order for mymother to respect me as a mother, I have to stand up to her.

Beyonce: Mom, I wanna talk to you, mother to mother.
Tina: I'm listening.
Beyonce: Mom, today was the last straw for me. Ever since I hadAaliyah, you've been going behind me re-doing things, trying toundermine me. You tell me how to bathe her, you tell me what to feedher. Mom, please just stop.
Tina: I have two daughters already, so I know how to raise a child.
Beyonce: And if I need your advice on something, I'll ask for it.
Tina: Fine.

I rolled my eyes. She's always trying to make someone feel bad about standing up to her, which is usually why I back down.

Beyonce: Ma, I mean no disrespect. And I feel blessed to have a motherlike you looking out for me, but what about when I move out? You won'tbe there to raise Aali for me.

She stood up.

Tina: You're right. And I'm proud of you for standing up to me.
Beyonce: I do love you, Mommy.
Tina: And I love you, too baby.

I gave her a hug. It felt as if the weight of the world had just risen off my shoulders.


Shanice's POV; A Week Later

Being back home in Houston was a bit dull. Solange waseither in school, or hanging out with her friends. She never let me tagalong, unless Aunt Tina or Uncle Matt made her. Dad was with Destiny'sChild on the road. Aali was with Lindell this week. I went into AuntTina's room, where she was folding and sorting laundry. I plopped downon her bed and groaned.

Tina: Why do you look so down?
Shanice: I am soooooooooo bored.
Tina: Why don't you go look over your script for your upcoming movie?
Shanice: Aunt Tina, I have a photographic memory, remember? I already had it committed to memory two days after I got it.
Tina: Do you want me to go over your lines with you?

I gave her a "yeah right" look. She shrugged and chuckled, going back to folding her laundry.

Tina: You know, a nice family moved in next door while you were away. Ithink they have at least two children around your age. I haven'twelcomed them to the neighborhood yet. I was thinking about baking acake and taking it over there. You wanna-

I cringed at the word 'wanna'.

Tina: [laughing] Sorry, I'm sorry. Do you want to help?
Shanice: Okay.

We headed downstairs to the kitchen. I started thinking about something.

Shanice: Aunt Tina, how are you going to introduce me?
Tina: What do you mean?
Shanice: When you introduce me, you usually say "This is Shanice".
Tina: Oh. I understand. Since you call me Aunt Tina, I can always refer to you as my niece.

I stopped on my way to the cabinets and turned to look at her.

Shanice: Aunt Tina, do you think anyone will be upset if I start to call you 'Mama and Daddy' instead of Aunt and Uncle?
Tina: I don't see why anyone would. I know Matthew and I wouldn't.Besides, I've been thinking of you as my daughter for five years now.

I smiled and gave her a hug.

Tina: Okay, let's get cooking.

I ran over to the cabinets and pulled out the strawberry cake mix.

Shanice: Can we make this one? I want to make cream cheese icing.

She smiled and nodded. I love cooking with Aunt, I mean, Mom. I'm goingto have to get used to saying that again. Once the cake cooled off, weput the icing on and I drew 'Welcome to the Neighborhood' in pinkicing. After we were done, I went to change. My ponytail was kind ofcurly, so I took it out and placed a pink headband on my hair instead,letting it hang. One day, if I can get Mama to let me, I'm going to cutit and see how long it takes to grow back. It won't be anythingdrastic, shoulder length or right below my shoulders. On my waydownstairs, the front door opened and in walked Solange. Mama camewalking out the kitchen with the cake in her hands.

Solange: What's the cake for?
Shanice: It's for the new neighbors. You wanna come?

They both gasped and looked at me in shock.

Shanice: What's wrong with the two of you?
Solange: She said 'wanna'.

Mama came and touched my forehead. I frowned my face up and pushed her hand away as she smiled and laughed with Solange.

Shanice: How can I not say it eventually? You keep saying it even when you know that word is one of my biggest pet peeves.
Solange: You like it, admit it.
Shanice: Whatever, Solo. Mama, can we go now?

She nodded and picked up the cake.

Solange: Did you just call her Mama?
Shanice: Solange, shut up and come on!

She ran and caught up with us at the door, then we went next door. Mamarang the doorbell. About a minute after, someone opened the door. Shewas very pretty, pecan tan complexion, with a short haircut, almostlike Kelly's. She was slim, like Kelly, too. I swear, if I didn'talready know Ms. Doris, I would think that this woman could be Kelly'smother. LOL!

Woman: Hello.
Tina: Hi, I'm Tina Knowles. These are my daughters, Shanice andSolange. We live right next door. We just came over to say welcome tothe neighborhood.
Woman: Thank you. My name is Leslie Dwight. Come on in.

She stepped aside and we went in. I looked around. They seemed to havegotten a lot done since they moved in. It looks like they've been herefor a while.

Leslie: We just moved in last week, but I've been really busy. The kids have been, too. Kids! Come meet the new neighbors!

I heard two doors open and shut, then footsteps. Three kids ended up infront of us. A boy, a cute boy, who was older than me. A girl wholooked to be the same age as me, and a little girl that looked to beabout five or six.

Leslie: These are our neighbors, the Knowles. Tina, these are mychildren, Rahmel, Khiyanna, and Ebony. Kids, this is Mrs. Tina Knowles,and her daughters Shanice and Solange. And you might know Shanicealready.
[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]Rahmel: Yeah, Mom keeps looking at "Righteous Child".

I blushed and looked down. That was my first film, the one that I wonan Oscar for. To be honest, the real reason I was blushing was becausehe spoke to me.

[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]Khiyanna: How old are you?
Shanice: Nine.
Khiyanna: Me, too. Too bad you don't go to school.
Shanice: Have you seen the town?

She shook her head.

Shanice: Mrs. Dwight, is it okay if I show them around?
Leslie: Did you finish putting up your toys and books?

They all nodded.

Leslie: It's fine with me.
Shanice: Can I, Mama?
Tina: Yeah, go ahead. But I want you home by 5, understand?

I nodded. We all headed outside. I'm making friends, my age. This is AWESOME!

Shanice's POV; Two Months Later

It was getting very close to my twelfth birthday andAali's third. Actually, it was a week away, making today the third ofMay. The movie had a month left of shooting, but I was going home formy birthday. Nigel and I wanted May off because that's when all ourfriends get out of school for summer break, so we resume in June. Itook a cab, yeah all by myself, home. I got to the door and unlocked itusing my key. The house was empty.

Shanice: Hello?! Anybody home?!

The only sound was my echo. Saddened that no one cared to be home when I got here, I plopped on the couch.

Tina: Now you know that chair is off-limits.

I hopped up and gave her a hug. She cupped my face in her hands and looked at me.

Tina: Were you crying?
Shanice: Almost. I thought no one was home.
Tina: Why wouldn't we be here when we knew you were coming back today?
Matthew: There goes the peace and quiet.

I ran over and gave him a hug, too.

Matthew: Let me look at you. Don't look any worse for the wear. How are you liking Mississippi?
Shanice: It's hot! But I did get to visit a few historical sites, like'Bryant's' and Moses Wright's house, and the Tallahatchie River.

I stood underneath him and wrapped my arm around his belly.

Shanice: Where's Solange?
Matthew: Dance class.
Tina: I have a surprise in the kitchen set-up for you.
Shanice: What is it?
Tina: Go find out.

I went into the kitchen. On the island was ice cream, sprinkles,chocolate chips, chopped strawberries, kiwi, and bananas all inseperate clear glass bowls, a bottle of rootbeer, and a bottle ofstrawberry and chocolate syrup.

Shanice: Awesome!

Mama and Dad came into the kitchen.

Matthew: How many different sundaes you think we can come up with?
Shanice: I didn't come home to do math, let's dig in.

We started to make all kinds of sundaes and floats.

Tina: Here, try this.

She fed me a bit of her sundae. I don't know what all she put on hers, but it was really good.

Matthew: What about me?
Tina: Here, you big baby.
Matthew: I'm your big baby.

They leaned over me and kissed.

Shanice: Ewwww, gross!

I made gagging and vomiting sounds.

Matthew: You keep thinking that until you're eighteen.
Shanice: I thought you said seventeen?
Matthew: I changed my mind. So, how's the movie?
Shanice: It's good, except for that one thing I didn't want to do.Other than that, it's awesome. Issac makes sure Nigel and I have funbetween takes. He brought a 'Slip and Slide' to set for us to play on.He let's me work behind the camera with him. He says I've been doingenough to actually be named one of the producers for the film.
Tina: Glad to see you still being a kid while you work.
Shanice: Yep.

I sighed and laid my head on Dad's shoulder, while rubbing my stomach. He looked down at me and kissed my forehead.

Matthew: Go on upstairs and get in the bed, Greedy.

I shook myself up.

Shanice: I'll help with cleaning up first.
Tina: We have it. Go on. I know you're jet lagged.
Shanice: You sure?
Matthew: You better go before we make you clean this up by yourself.

I got up and went upstairs. I looked in the bedrooms. Beyonce's smellstill lingered in her room and the pillowy, sitting area was nice andcool, well, the pillows were. I curled up in the pillows and before youknow it, I was out like a light.

[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]Beyonce's POV

Today was an off-day. We were in Canada, which iswhere our next performance is for our promo tour. Kelly and Michellecame in with Aali in front of them. I don't know where Farrah is, andit's getting to the point where we don't care. Aaliyah was swinging thebox she had in her hands with the biggest smile on her face. She ranover to the bed and jumped on it. She crawled up until she was right upunder me, leaning against my body.

[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]Aaliyah: Mommy, there McNonal here! Aunt Kelly and Chelle took me to it.

Yeah, I had her hair cut. It's a long story, but I'll shorten it foryou. In the car on our way to our hotel after just getting of a twelvehour flight, Solange and Aali were fighting. This is all the time withthose two. So everybody learns to tune them out. Oh, this happenedabout two weeks ago. Anyways, unbeknownest to be, Solange gave Aali apiece of gum to shut her up. Aali fell asleep with it in her mouth. Iguess it got in her hair in the car. I put her hood on because it waswindy and pressed it to her head as I carried her into the hotel. Shestayed asleep, on her back, for another hour or so once we got to ourroom. I didn't notice the gum, Michelle did. It was all in the back ofher head. So, it had to be cut. And that's the length we had to cut itat

Beyonce: Did you tell them 'Thank you'?
Aaliyah: Uh-huh. I wan' get you one, but Aunt Kelly say it make your bu-

Kelly covered Aali's mouth with her hand and gave a nervous chuckle. I gave Kelly 'the eyebrow'.

Kelly: Dang man, why you got such a big mouth?

Aali looked up and shrugged with Kelly's hand still covering her mouth.

Beyonce: Kelly, you plan on moving your hand anytime soon?
Kelly: Oh, forgot.

She put her index finger to her mouth before she moved her hand. Aalifrowned up and wiped her lips in disgust. I laughed. It was rude, butKelly had it coming. Kelly rolled her eyes and sat on the foot of thebed. She leaned over and tried to see what I was writing. I pulled thepad up to my chest, blocking her from reading it.

Beyonce: Nosey.
Kelly: Come one, Bee. Let me see.
Beyonce: No. I'm just messing around with this one.
Michelle: What?
Kelly: She's writing a song. Bee, please?

She poked out her bottom lip.

Beyonce: Kelly, that lip is big enough as it is.

She hit me in the leg and moved.

Beyonce: [laughing] I still love you!

[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]Shanice's POV

I woke up and looked at Bee's digital clock on hernightstand. It was a little after two that morning. I got up andstretched. As little sisters do when the older siblings are away, Idecided to do some plundering. After thirty minutes of finding nothing,I gave up. I went downstairs to the kitchen. I decided to go into theattic, where we stored a lot of old stuff from our childhoods and Momand Dad's old clothes. Some of my real mom and Papi's things are upthere, too. I quietly and gentily pulled down the ladder to the atticand climbed up.

Shanice: [coughs] Dang!

I went to a big trunk that I recognized and opened it. There were a lotof papers and pictures of Mami and Papi in it. Most of the letters werelove letters. I found a baby book with my name on it. I'd never seen itbefore. As I flipped through the pages, a letter fell out. It wasunopened and it had my name on it.

Shanice: What the?

It has my name on it, so I opened it. The opening let me know it was from my real father, Claude. It read:


Dear Button Nose,
I don't actually know what to write or say in regards to the matter. Ijust want to start by saying that the day you were born, I had so manyemotions. I was nervous, afraid, overjoyed. The list just goes on andon. I didn't know what to expect. Your first word was 'Papi', that blewme away. Maybe it's because you were only three months old. We were adynamic duo from day one. You were always by my side, mainly because ofmy own fears. I wanted to make sure that we established thatfather/daughter bond. I wanted to make sure that you looked up to noman the way you looked up to me. No, it wasn't anything pervertic, itwas to ensure that no questions were asked, especially once the worldlearned of your amazing gift. Just remember that no matter what, youare my daughter and I love you with all my heart.

Matthew Knowles is your biological father. It was a lot of troublegetting Nikki, Vonnie, and Sel, so when it came to us wanting one morechild, it was impossible for me to do so. So finally, we talked to thepeople we trusted more than anyone, Matthew and Tina. He offered todonate his seed and after two weeks of discussion and debating, yourmother and I decided to take them up on their offer. Of course, myfamily knew about my condition and washed their hands of you beforethey even took the chance of getting to know you. Wveryone else whoknew thought that you should never know, but I feel it's your right toknow. Forgive me for waiting so long.

All My Love, Papi.

He thought he had mixed emotions the day I was born, it isn't anythingto what I am feeling at the moment. I was angry and upset, devasted andsad, and yet, grateful. Grateful that he told me instead of letting mecontinue to ravel my brain with my 'family' issues and continue livinga lie. And still, no one wanted to tell me. That made me feel moreangry than anything. I stormed down those stairs, up those stairs andburst throught Tina and Matthew's bedroom door. The sound of the doorbanging into the wall startled them awake. Matthew turned on the light.My eyes were stinging with tears that I was too proud to let fall, butto young not to.

Tina: Baby, what's wrong?
Shanice: Don't call me that.... Where you ever going to tell me?
Tina: Tell you what? Niecy, why are you crying?
Shanice: You were gonna let me live one big lie! You were going toleave all those questions I had about my family unanswered! That's whyyou adopted me and my uncle wouldn't!

Matthew got up and tried to hold me. I pushed him away with all my might.

Shanice: Don't touch me! Don't come near me! I hate you!

I looked at Tina and back at Matthew. The tears kept coming. Thesilence was so heavy, the feeling was that of the death of a loved one.That's the only way I can describe the atmosphere right now.

Shanice: Why? Why weren't you going to tell me?
Matthew: It's complicated.
Shanice: My IQ is higher than anyone in the world. Try me.

They looked back and forth at each other and at me, trying to come up with some lame excuse.

Shanice: You know what, just save it.

I rolled my eyes at them in disgust. I called the airlines to catch the next flight to California.


Shanice's POV

Unfortunately, all flights to California were booked,so I was stuck here. I don't think they'd actually let me go anyways.I'd been awake all night, figuring out my next move or what to saynext. There was only one person I could think of to call.

Nicole: Hello?
Shanice: Nikki, I don't know what to do.
Nicole: Niecy? What's wrong?
Shanice: Did you know that Matthew was my biological father and that him, Tina, or Mommy didn't want to tell me?

It got silent on her end.

Shanice: You knew, too?!
Nicole: I found out by accident. It wasn't my place to tell you. Niecy,you can't get upset. They all had their reasons for not wanting to tellyou, just like I had mine.
Shanice: You saw, you saw how confused and hurt I was!
Nicole: Niecy, calm down. I mean, can you sit there and actually tellme that if they had told you as soon as you were able to understand,you wouldn't have treated Papi any different?

I had to think about that one. Even at the age of two, I probablywould've gotten closer to Matthew, even if it wasn't intentionally.

Shanice: No.
Nicole: Exactly. Just give it some time. When you're ready, talk to them.
Shanice: I want to come to your place.
Nicole: You're not using me as a way to run from your problems. Youneed to deal with this, okay? And you need to do it before you go backto Mississippi.
Shanice: How?
Nicole: I can't solve all your problems. Use the intelligence God gave you. I love you.
Shanice: Love you, too.

We hung up. I just sat there, completely and totally lost.

Beyonce's POV

I gentily stroked Aali's hair as she slept with herhead on my lap. My poor baby wasn't feeling good. She'd been throwingup and complaining about her stomach and side. Today, I was taking herto the doctor. Slowly, so I wouldn't wake her and she'd start all thatcrying again, I dressed her in [You must be registered and logged in to see this image.] and [You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]. Michelle and Kelly came in the room.

Michelle: Still wasn't feeling any better?
Beyonce: Nope. I'm getting ready to take her to the doctor.
Kelly: You think it was the food she ate?
Beyonce: No, so stop beating yourself up.

I picked her up and went out the backway where an SUV was waiting onme. She woke up as I was buckling her into the booster seat.

Aaliyah: Mommy, it hurts.
Beyonce: I know baby, we're going to make it all better, okay. Just go back to sleep.

She laid back with those big tears rolling down her face. It hurt me sobad that I couldn't do anything to ease her pain. I softly stroked herhand the whole way to the doctor's office. He was the best pediatricianin town. Once we got in there, they had to wake her up and that wasdrama. She clung onto me, crying her little eyes out. I had to wipe afew of my own away. After they finished the tests, they gave hersomething for the pain. I sat in the doctor's office with Aali curledup in my lap, sniffling.

Beyonce: Do you know what it is?
Doctor: It seems she has a case of appendicitis.
Beyonce: So, there's surgery involved?
Doctor: We have to go in and remove it. If we don't, it could spread and could possibly cause cancer in vital organs.
Beyonce: How soon can you do the operation?
Doctor: Tomorrow morning. She shouldn't eat anything for the rest ofthe day. We should go ahead and admit her to the hospital, that way wecan keep her on some meds and ease her pain.

I nodded, holding back tears. My almost three year old baby was goingto have a major operation. I couldn't handle this alone. I calledLindell. I would have called my parents, but I didn't want them hereworrying and adding more stress to it by babying me and everything.Plus, Niecy just got home and I didn't want to spoil her month of fun.After I called Lindell, I called Michelle and Kelly. They both came,bringing some of Aali's favorite things to make her feel at home in thehospital. The meds started working and she stopped crying. Now, we justsit and wait for tomorrow.


That night, I had to take Aali back to the hospital. I stayed awake the whole night, just watching her sleep.

Nurse: Ma'am, there's a phone call for you at the front desk.
Beyonce: Can you please take a message?

She smiled. She looked about 30 between 35, brown, shoulder length hair, 120lbs.

Nurse: I can have the call transferred to the phone in the room.
Beyonce: Thank you.
Nurse: I understand. I have an 8 year old son.

She gave me another warm smile and left. The phone rang shortly afterwards.

Beyonce: Hello?
Lindell: Hey. How is she?
Beyonce: She's still asleep, but I think the medicine they gave her is helping.
Lindell: When's her opperation.
Beyonce: Tomorrow at three.
Lindell: I'll be there this evening.
Beyonce: You don't have to do that. I know you're going to be tired after your training today.
Lindell: I'm coming Bee, and that's the end of it. She's my daughter, Ineed to be there. For you and her. I know you're a worried mess.
Beyonce: Ya think?
Lindell: I know. How you holdin' up? You sleeping?
Beyonce: I can't. I'm afraid to take my eyes off of her, even for a second.
Lindell: I'll see you in a bit.
Beyonce: Okay.

I hung up. I stroked Aali's hair. Her eyes fluttered open.

Beyonce: Good morning.

She gave me her "nod, smile, and slow blink: move. That's how she says good morning when she first wakes up.

Beyonce: You gave me quite a scare last night.

She had the machines going crazy becasue she was having a hard timebreathing. I guess it hurt for her to do so. I sat there looking at herfor at least 10 minutes. She just looked at me and outstrectched herarms. I picked her up and placed her in my lap.

Beyonce: So, do you know what's going on?

She shook her head.

Beyonce: Remember the movie you watched last night, Madeline?
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She nodded her head. Then her eyes got wide and she continually shookher head. She tried to slide down and run for the door, but she gotstopped by the mechanics attached to her body. I got up and picked herup. I placed her back in her bed.

Aaliyah: My pendis.
Beyonce: They took it out already.
Aaliyah: Huh?
Beyonce: Look at your stomach.

She lifted her shirt up and saw the scar on her side.

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I shook my head and smiled at her. My little drama queen.


Solange's POV: A Week Later

Living in this house for the last week has been hell.Today is Aali and Niecy's birthdays. Aali is overseas still, so wecan't celebrate her birthday this year, and you already know what'sgoing on in this house. I went into Niecy's room. She had been at thatdesk forever.

Solange: I got the mail. There's something for you that I think you''ll like.

She didn't respond. I sighed and put the envelope on the des and walked out. I gotta get up out this house.

Shanice's POV

After I heard the door close behind Solo, I stoppedwriting and looked in the envelope. A big smile came across my face. Ifyou don't know, I'm a BIG wresteling fan. I mean HUGE fan. I go to alot of the shows when I can and I am really close to some of thesuperstars. My favorites are The Rock, HHH, and my all time favorite isthe Dominate Female, The Billion Dollar Princess, StephanieMcMahon-'Helmsley'. She's really sweet in real life. That's who theenvelope was from. Tonight, they were taping Raw here in Houston. Shesent me four tickets and said that I was written into the story linefor tonight. Before I could even think about that, I need to handlesomething else. Writing is a great way to get your feelings out. I seewhy Beyonce does it so much. I had spent all week writing poems andjust memoirs I guess to try and sort out my feelings. I had finallycome to the conclusion that I couldn't really be mad at anyone. If ithadn't been for what they did, I wouldn't even be in existence. I wentto their bedroom, but no one was in there. My stomach rumbled, so Iheaded to the kitchen. To my luck, he was in there, too. I went to therefridgerator and grabbed an already made sandwich. I sat at the tableacross from him.

Shanice: Hey.

He looked up with a shocked expression on his face. I smiled a little.

Shanice: Yeah, I'm speaking to you. I just wanna say that I'm sorry. Idon't think I over-reacted, but I think saying that I hate you wentoverboard.
Matthew: Come here.

I got up and stood next to him. He put his arm around my waist.

Matthew: I know that it upset you, but we thought it was for the bestthat you never found out. Maybe that was a mistake. I'm just glad thatyou're speaking to me again.
Shanice: I love you, Daddy.
Matthew: I love you,too Pudding.

I smiled and hugged him as tightly as I could. He hugged me back justas tight. I pulled away and sat back down, sliding my chair next tohis. Just as I was about to bite into the sandwich, which was actuallya hoagie, he took it out my hand and bit into it.

Shanice: I was about to eat that.
Matthew: No you weren't. This is mine. Your mom made it for me before she left. Go make your own.
Shanice: But-

He shook his head. I got up and went back to the fridge, gathering stuff for my sandwich.

Shanice: Daddy, I got a present in the mail.
Matthew: Really? Who's it from?
Shanice: Stephanie McMahon-"Helmsley". I get to be in the storyline tonight. Can we go, please?
Matthew: You know I don't like that stuff.
Shanice: For me, Daddy. Pretty please?

He looked at me, with my pouty face and sad eyes. I was milking it for everything it's worth. He sighed and turned back around.

Matthew: Fine, only because it's your birthday. How many tickets do you have?
Shanice: Four. I was gonna ask Rahmel because he loves wresteling more than I do.
Matthew: That leaves one more.

I put my sandwich together and put everything back in the refridgerator. I took a big bite and ran upstairs.

Shanice: Solange, get dressed! We're going to a WWF wresteling show tonight!


Shanice's POV

I went to Solange's room.

Shanice: Solange, we're going to Raw.
Solange: You and dad have fun.
Shanice: You're going, too.
Solange: Ha! You know I do not like wrestling.
Shanice: For me, please?

She crossed her arms across her chest and shook her head. I had tothink. I smiled. I left and went to my room. I got a poster of 'TheRock' and took it to her room. I put it in front of her.[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]

Shanice: Most of the guys look like that and they wear the same thing.
Solange: I mean, if you're gonna beg and everything.

I squealed and hugged her. I'll make sure she gets to meet Dwayne. Iran downstairs and opened the door. Mom was coming in. I smiled andhugged her.

Shanice: I love you.

I ran out the door and next door. I knocked on the door and waited. Rahmel's mother opened the door.

Mrs. Dwight: Hi, Niecy.
Shanice: Hey Mrs. Dwight. Is Rahmel home?
Mrs. Dwight: He's upstairs. Go on up.

I went inside and up to his room. I knocked and he came and opened it.

Rahmel: Hey.
Shanice: Guess what?
Rahmel: What?
Shanice: We're going to Raw tonight.
Rahmel: You kidding?
Shanice: Stephanie sent me four tickets. So, do you want to go?

He smiled and kissed me on the cheek.

Rahmel: Let's go ask my mom.

We ran down the stairs. His mom was dusting in the living room. She looked at us and smiled.

Mrs. Dwight: Where's the fire?
Rahmel: Niecy got tickets to Raw. Can I go?
Mrs. Dwight: I can't say no. You'd probably kill us all in our sleep.

We gave each other a high-five.

Beyonce's POV

I came out the bathroom from taking a bath. Aali wasjumping on the bed. She looked at me and stopped, plopping on the bedwhen she came down from her last jump.

Beyonce: You keep on. You're gonna tear those stictches.
Aaliyah: I was being careful, Mommy.
Beyonce: Mmm-hmm. Your daddy left?
Aaliyah: He went to get me some ice cream.
Beyonce: Spoiled tail.

I got my night clothes out and got dressed. Lindell came back, followedby Kelly and Michelle, holding a birthday cake. Aali clapped, jumpingup and down. I shook my head as they sung happy birthday to her. Ijoined in the song. After we finished , they placed the cake on thenightstand. She got down off the bed and blew out the candles. I juststared at her. She's so precious and so cute! I can't believe she'sthree! I was jolted out of my thoughts when Aali ran into my arms. Icarefully picker her up and kissed her cheek.

Aaliyah: I love you, Mommy.
Beyonce: I love you, too, Baby.

Shanice's POV

Wrestling was sooo much fun! I got to make jokes withThe Rock. Solange was just in awe of him. The Rock and I picked fun atStephanie on camera. She 'pretended' that she was about to slap me, butHHH stopped her and pulled her away, arguing that she couldn't slap akid, especially Shanice Parker. But when the cameras weren't on her,Steph and I had a lot of fun watching the show from her dressing room.She even showed me how to do her slap, because we all know wrestling isfake. I fell asleep on the way home. One of the best birthdays ever,loved it.


Beyonce's POV; 4 Months Later(Fall, 2000)

Today, I was scheduled to go into the studio andrecord a song with Destiny's Child entitled Independent Women, allthanks to my dad. The song was going to be the main song for the newmovie coming out Charlie's Angels. I brought Aali along with me. Iarrived a little late, because of Aali. She snuck-up behind Kelly.

[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]Aaliyah: Hey!
Kelly: Whoa!

Kelly turned around. I had to laugh because she was really scared.

Kelly: Ugh, devil child.

Aali's mood changed instantly. That bottom lip began to quiver. BeforeI could tell her that she better not cry, Kelly picked her up.

Kelly: I'm sorry. I'm not mad, okay? Auntie missed you. You can't keep leaving us for your dad.

I rolled my eyes and sat at the boards. I can't believe how easy it isfor Aali to sucker everyone but me, and I think Niecy and Solo.

Michelle: I think getting your appendix out made you shrink.
Aaliyah: Nah-uh.
Michelle: Uh-huh.
Aaliyah: Nah-uh!
Michelle: Uh-huh!
Beyonce: [laughing] Michelle, don't tease her.

They both stuck their tongues out at each other.

Kelly: So immature.

Michelle and I looked at each other with disbelief, then at Kelly.

Kelly: What?
Beyonce: Don't try and play innocent. You and Aali argue more than anyone I know.
Kelly: Even more than Niecy?
Michelle: Even more than Niecy. Speaking of which, where is that child now?
Beyonce: Canada. She's on this series now, "Degrassi".
Kelly: Didin't she just finish "The Mississippi Storm"?
Beyonce: About two months ago. Oh, she told me to tell you that this show was set in today, so she hopes you're happy.

Kelly smiled, while shaking her head and rolling her eyes. I got up and slaooedd my lap.

Beyonce: Okay ladies. let's get to work.

[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]Shanice's POV

Yes, I'm back to work. I'm going to take a nice, longbreak as soon as I finish this show, though I'm not sure how long thatwill take. I just couldn't pass up the chance to be on "Degrassi". Iremember watching a re-run of the show. It was originally out in 1987.This show is the next generation. They didn't hire a bunch of adults toplay high school teenagers, they hired kids, because this was middleschool. I get to play a girl named Lauren. She's twelve and has anolder brother and a widow mother. The whole show's slogan is "It goesthere", so Lauren has some issues. Her stepfather keeps trying to forcehimself on her, but her brother, who is a junior, protects her. Hermother doesn't believe her because she's just happy that she finallyhas someone and isn't lonely, plus, Lauren's known as "The Girl WhoCried Wolf" for lying on another potential step-father. But that wasdoing a phase where she didn't want anyone trying to replace herfather. [Deep breath] Anyway, today we''re not shooting. Actually, Ijust got to Canada a couple of days ago. So, this is the first time thecast is meeting.

Linda: Hello, I'm Linda Schuyler. I'm the creator of the show. Thisshow is going to filmed here in Canada, so the story does take place inCanada. So, now that you know me, let's introduce the rest ofourselves, starting from the right.

I was sitting on the end, so I had to go first.

Shanice: My name is Shanice Parker. I'm twelve and I'm going to be playing the role of Lauren Casey.
Lauren: Hi, I'm Lauren Collins.I'm 14 and I play Paige Michalchuk.
Aubrey: My name is Aubrey Graham, but I prefer to be called Drake. I'm 14 and I play Jimmy Brooks.

He was sooo cute! I think I'm crushing on him.

Miriam: Hi, I'm Miriam McDonald. I'm 13 and I play Emma Nelson.

Everyone else introduced themselves. There were a lot of kids, which isthe main reason I signed on to do the show. After the introductions, wewere given two hours to get to know each other. I just stood there,looking lost.

Lauren: Hi, I'm Lauren. Shanice, right?
Shanice: Yeah, nice to meet you.
Lauren: Can I be,like, totally honest with you? Don't take this thewrong way, but before they said that you'd be doing the show, I hadnever heard of you. I know your sister and their group.
Shanice: None taken. Is this your first job?
Lauren: Yeah. Maybe you can give me a few pointers?

Drake and Andrea, who played Hazel Aden, walked over.

Drake: What's up? So, after this, a few of us decided to go get pizza. You two wanna come?

Lauren said yes.

Andrea: Shanice, what about you?
Shanice: I can't. Right after this, I have a photoshoot.
Andrea: I thought that wasn't until next week?
Shanice: I have to do a photoshoot for an interview for Ebony magazine. It's about my upcoming movie.
Drake: Yeah, she's an Academy Award winning actress and child prodigy.

I felt myself blushing.

Drake:Well, maybe next time.
Shanice: Yeah, next time. So, what kinds of things do you like to do?
Drake: Play basketball, watch TV, and I might wanna be a rapper. You?
Shanice: I like to cook, skate, hang with my sisters, niece, and nephews. You know, the normal stuff.
Andrea: That's normal enough.

Someone called Drake and the three left. I called Erica and told her Iwas ready to go to my photoshoot and interview. I was in a hurry to getto my notebook and to the phone, so I could talk to Rahmel. I hadn'tseen him in two months, nor did I hear from him. Guess I have to callhim.


Shanice's POV

I was sitting in the lounge of the Mariot Hotel to do an interview with Esscense magazine. My interviewer's name was Sharon.

Sharon: You are so much more adorable in person.

I blushed.

Shanice: Thank you.
Sharon: So, how old are you now?
Shanice: I'm twelve.
Sharon: So, you're a child prodigy and an Academy Award winning actressat the age of twelve. Does that leave a lot of time to do normalpre-teen stuff?
Shanice: Yes and no. If it was up to me, every great script that Iread, I'd do the movie. My parents, they limit me. They make me taketime out to do normal things and visit my sisters, stuff like that.
Sharon: Solange and Beyonce?
Shanice: No, Nicole, Shavonne, and Denise. They're my biologicalsisters. My parents died in a car crash. Denise and I were in the car,but we survived with no real harm.
Sharon: I do remember reading about that when it happened. So, how did you get adopted by the Knowles'?
Shanice: They were my parents' best friends since before I was born. My mom and Mama Tina were college roommates.
Sharon: How is it you got seperated?

I felt a familiar tinge of pain. Because I'm not really a Parker.

Shanice: My uncle wasn't able to take all of us in. And the Knowleses were my godfamily.
Sharonkay, so you're the youngest in both sets?
Shanice: Uh-huh.
Sharon: Frustrating, isn't it?
Shanice: Definately. I might be one of the smartest people in theworld, but they still see me as their baby sister. So when I go visitmy oldest sister and I have to stay there alone, her and ehr fiance arealways checking in on me.
Sharon: That's great, though. I heard you really act like a baby when you get sick.
Shanice: [laughs] I don't get sick a lot, so when I do, I tend to be overdramatic like my father.
Sharon: Now, what are some of the things you do when you're off?
Shanice: A normal 'off day' for me is visiting one of my sisters andniece and nephews. Or, I like to help my Mama Tina do the Destiny'sChild outfits. I like to stay up late watching T.V. or be pesky withSolange or Beyonce. I love to read. I like to rollerblade andskateboard. The normal things.
Sharon: Do you ever watch your own movies?
Shanice: At the premieres I do, but I really don't. It's wierd lookingat yourself but the person isn't you at all. Then you have your familysaying things like "Look at Niecy acting serious. It's so cute!".
Sharon: Do you have a boyfriend?
Shanice: No. I can't.
Sharon: [laighing] Who made that rule?
Shanice: Everyone, but it's a different age with everyone. Mama saysfourteen. Daddy says seventeen. Beyonce, Kelly, and Michelle saysixteen, along with my other three sisters. My future brother-in-lawssay 25.
Sharon: [laughs] That's so sweet how they're all looking out for you. Who do you agree with?
Shanice: I'm not sure. I think that when it happens, it just happens.Fourteen seems reasonable enough to know when you do have genuinefeelings for someone, though.
Sharon: You are really wise beyond your years.

I blushed again.

Shanice: Thank you.
Sharon: You've done a lot. What do you want to achieve next?
Shanice: I probably want to direct and produce a movie at sixteen. Iwant to do a series, actually I'm working on that now. I've alwayswanted to write a psychology book that children my age couldunderstand. I may start on that next year. That seems to be about it.Just be happy and as normal as possible.


Shanice's POV

So, I decided to hang out with the cast. I mean, it's not like I had anything else to do.

Lauren: I can't believe I'm about to star in a series. This is so, like, surreal.

Lauren seems a lot like her character, Paige.

Drake: What made you take the role?
Shanice: I guess because I'm a fan of the show and that I thought it'dbe fun to do something with a bunch of kids my age. Plus, I've neverdone a series before, either. I mean, I've guest starred in a fewseries, but it's nothing like this.
Andrea: You're lucky. You don't have to do the three hours of schooling each day.
Shanice: I kind of wish I had to. I never got to go to school like aregular kid. I was home-tutored the whole time. I don't know, I guessmy parent my parents were afraid of how I'd be treated by the teachersand other students. So, I've never stepped foot in a school to attendone.
Shane: Man, now I feel sorry for you.
Shanice: Don't. I mean, there are times that I wish that I was normal,but when the perks kick in, like being able to go to WWF shows andparticipate in the storyline, I don't feel bad at all.
Shane: I did see you almost get slapped by Stephanie McMahon. Is she really like that?
Shanice: No, all the superstars are really nice. Just don't tell anyone I told you that.

We all laughed and continued to talk.

[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]Beyonce's POV

Beyonce: Kelly, could you take that up an octave?
[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]Kelly: The rock I'm rocking. How about I just take up the 'rocking'?
Beyonce: Okay, try it and see how it sounds.

She tested it out before we decided if it was better. I smiled andnodded. We got back to recording. I looked back to check on Aali whohad fallen asleep.

Beyonce: Where's Aali?
Michelle: She was right here on the couch when I left.
Beyonce: Oh my God.

I ran out the studio, frantically searching for my daughter. My heartwas pounding and aching, and my eyes were stinging from the tears thatwanted to fall that I wouldn't let.

[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]Aaliyah's POV

I don't think this was a good idea. I woke up andChelle was gone. I went to look for her. I don't know where I am. Iheard music, so I followed it. It was a lot of people in there. Ididn't know any of them. One of them saw me.

[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]Man: Hey, who she belong to?

They shrugged. He came over and bent down in front of me.

Man: Hey Baby Thug. You lost?

I didn't say anything. Mommy says never talk to strangers.

Man: You can't talk to strangers, huh? What if I tell you my name, will I still be a stranger?

I shrugged.

Man: My name's Jay-Z, but you can call me Jay. Wanna tell me your name?
Aaliyah: Aaliyah.
Jay: That's pretty. Aaliyah, what are you doing walking around by yourself?
Aaliyah: I got lost.
Jay: Do you know who you're supposed to be with?

I nodded. He stood up.

Jay: Here, take my hand, Baby Thug.
Aaliyah: That's not my name. And you're still a scranger.
Jay: Okay, if you don't want my help you can stay lost in here.

I didn't want to stay lost.

Aaliyah: I don't wanna stay lost. I want my mommy.
Jay: Okay, let's go find her.

He held my hand. After a while of looking, I saw her in wthe hallway.

Aaliyah: Mommy!

She looked at me. I ran to her and she squeezed me tight. She was kissing me all on my face and head.

Beyonce: Don't you ever scare me like that again.
Aaliyah: I sorry, Mommy.
Jay: Wow.
Beyonce: Thank you.
Jay: You're welcome. So, you didn't tell me you had a daughter.
Beyonce: I didn't tell you anything, remember.
Jay: That's right. You turned me down.
Beyonce: Look, I want to keep her as normal as possible, so I'd really appreciate-
Jay: Don't worry. Your secret's safe with me. Nice meeting you, Baby Thug.
Aaliyah: Bye Jay.
Beyonce: Say 'thank you'.
Aaliyah: Thank you for helping me find my Mommy.
Jay: You are very welcome.

He held up his hand and I gave him five. He turned around and left.

Aaliyah: I like him, Mommy.
Beyonce: Yeah? Well, I like him for bringing you back to me. What were you thinking, leaving like that?
Aaliyah: I sorry.

I yawned and laid my head on her shoulder. She rubbed my back.

Beyonce: As long as you're okay.


Shanice's POV

Wow, Aali is getting a little too bold for my liking,getting lost in the studio like that. I was on the phone with my thirdbig sister now.

Shanice: So Jay-Z knows you have a daughter?
Beyonce: Yeah.
Shanice: Don't worry, he wouldn't rat you out.
Beyonce: Did I ever tell you that he asked me out a couple of months ago at a party?
Shanice: No! You met Jay-Z and didn't even tell me!?
Beyonce: I just did.

She started laughing.

Shanice: There's nothing funny. You could've gotten me an autograph or something.
Beyonce: I didn't know you liked him like that.
Shanice: He's the only rapper I listen to.
Beyonce: You aren't allowed to listen to rap.
Shanice: I can listen to clean versions and stuff that isn't tooexplicit. Some of his songs are pre-teen friendly. And plus, I'm achild prodigy, I can listen to anything I want.
Beyonce: How did we end up talking about you?

I shrugged my shoulders.

Beyonce: Please don't tell me you shrugged, like I can see it. All the book smarts in the world and no common sense.
Shanice: I'm not the one that turned down a date with the biggest rapper of New York.
Beyonce: Okay, again, off topic! You think he might blackmail me?

My face dropped. Without meaning to, my sister can be very conceited at times. Hmm, just like Shavonne. LOL!

Shanice: Bee, you are not all that.
Beyonce: Whatever. So, how's taping going?
Shanice: It's great! I don't know why I didn't think of doing thissooner. I get to be around kids my age all day and it's a blast!There's even a fight in the first episode!
Beyonce: Who's fighting?!
Shanice: Chill, Bee. My character's brother and a boy that likes my character.
Beyonce: Speaking of which, any cute boys that could be a first boyfriend?
Shanice: Beyonce, cut it out!
Beyonce: [laughing] I'll take that as a yes.
Shanice: So, can I come to your apartment next week?

Oh, Beyonce's starting to film her first movie. It's a MTV TV movie and she has the lead.

Beyonce: Please do! Oh my God, I'm so lonely!

I laughed and shook my head.

Shanice: Wait, where's Aali?
Beyonce: In Houston with Lynn. After that incident, I needed to give her a little break.
Shanice: Did she need a break or you?
Beyonce: The both of us.
Shanice: You two are something else. Well, I gotta go. We're shooting the third episode.
Beyonce: Don't leave me!
Shanice: Go work on the new Destiny's Child album.
Beyonce: Way to osoon to be thinking about that.
Shanice: Learn how to cook. Bye.
Beyonce: Bye. 

Beyonce's POV

I had just finished filming the bar scene, well, thedialogue part of it anyways. And then, tomorrow, on top of filming, Ihad to go to the studio with Destiny's Child and finish up our album.AND, MTV is filming Diary. That's another reason that I sent Aali backto Houston.

Robert: Okay, everyone take 30!
Beyonce: Thank goodness.

I went back to my dressing room. My mom was with me today. She was on the phone, she didn't see me come in.

Tina: She's on the set.[pause] I bet you do.[pause] I promise, Munchkin.

I cleared my throat. Mom looked back at me and smiled.

Tina: She's right here.

I smiled as I took the phone from my mother.

Beyonce: Hey, Baby Girl.
Aaliyah: Wow, Mommy 2 works fast.

I chuckled.

Beyonce: Are you being good for Nana?
Aaliyah: Yes, Mommy. Nana took me and Sid to the park today. We chasedall the duckies and then we ran through the garden. And then we chasedthe duckies some more. Then we fed the duckies. Then we played on theplayground. Then I took a nap.
Beyonce: I bet you did. You sound like you had a very eventful day. When are you coming back to me?
Aaliyah: I'm not ready to come back.
Beyonce: You're not? Why?
Aaliyah: I get to play with Sid here.
Beyonce: You like Sid more than you like me?
Aaliyah: No! Mommy, you're being silly. Nana and Mommy 2 say I'll be back on Friday. How many days away is Friday?
Beyonce: Friday is 4 days away. So, when the moon goes down five more times, then you'll be back.
Aaliyah: That's a long time.
Beyonce: [chuckles] No, not that long. It'll go by even faster sinceyou're having so much fun with Sid. And guess who else is coming onFriday?
Aaliyah: Uh, Daddy?
Beyonce: Nope.
Aaliyah: Uh, Nana?
Beyonce: Nope.
Aaliyah: I don't wanna guess anymore.
Beyonce: Aunt Niecy is coming on Friday, too.
Aaliyah: Now I really gotta make time go faster! Where her at now?
Beyonce: She's still in Canada.
Aaliyah: She always in Canada.
Beyonce: I miss you so much.
Aaliyah: I miss you, too Mommy.

She yawned. It was pretty late. I didn't even expect for her to be up.

Beyonce: Someone sounds sleepy.
Aaliyah: No I'm not.
Beyonce: I promise, I'll talk to you first thing when you wake up.
Aaliyah: Can you sing me to sleep?
Beyonce: Are you in the bed now?
Aaliyah: Uh-huh. Nana said if I wanted you to sing to me, then I had to be ready for bed when we called.
Beyonce: Okay, what song do you want to hear tonight?
Aaliyah: Uuuuuh, Prince of Egypt.
Beyonce: Okay. All tucked in?
Aaliyah: Uh-huh.
Beyonce: Okay.

By the way her voice sounds, I know I only need to sing the first verse and the chorus, then she'd be out like a light.

Beyonce:Many nights we prayed
With no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts a hope for a song
We barely understood

Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains
Long before we knew we could, whoa, yes

There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill

Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe somehow you will
You will when you believe

I could hear her soft snores. I kissed the phone and hung up.Eventually, Lynn would go hang it up, if she wasn't in there already.

Tina: You miss her, don't you?
Beyonce: [whines] Yeeeessss.
Tina: Four more days. That means the moon has to go down five more times.

She chuckled as I laid back on the couch, waiting to go back on set.


[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]Shanice's POV

So, I'm about to give you a taste of what the show is like.

Sicily walked to her brother's car, embarassed and angry.

Sicily: Why did you do that?! Do you know howo embarassing that was?!
Eric: Good. I don't want you around that little punk. He only has one thing on his mind.
Sicily: And how do you know?
Eric: 'Cause I was just like him when I was that age. Stay away from him, and I mean it.

Sicily say back in her seat with her arms folded across her chest. Meanwhile, Jimmy was in the gymnasium back at school.